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Sometimes the walls of box I find myself in were built by me
And it takes a loud reminder from God telling me to, “BREAK FREE!”
All the hits I take wear me down and sometimes I don’t want to get up
I stay low accepting the undoubted shame of the loser’s cup
Success in this life isn’t achieved by playing a risky game of luck
Nor is it about pushing your limits to ‘earn’ a quick buck
Love isn’t something you happen to find, it’s something you make
Sex isn’t supposed to be a commodity you pay for or just take
Now music is made to eat away at your soul
And knowledge distorts the significance of life’s goal
Religion is just an idea used to fill emptiness
No wonder we feel so lost in this time, we’ve made a mess
I’m supposed to be uncomfortable, none of this is right
The state of brothers and sisters is not something I take light
All this disgust means nothing is I stay silent
Do I really care if I don’t even try to make a dent?
Who am I to complain and then just sit?
Something about this situation just doesn’t fit
What am I gonna do about it?

Rededication

I’ve drifted many times before
Made promises that I wouldn’t hurt you anymore
All the while you knew the promises I’d break
You knew while I hid behind the smiles I’d fake
Now I’ve seen what life’s like without you
And I want to come home, just tell me what to do
The worldly way offers a false sense of freedom
But it’s just a trick to distract me from Your Kingdom
The unfortunate can’t see but the foolish just pretend to be blind
I’m still confused as to how I’m able to treat you so unkind
But none of that matters now
I’m standing ready to renew our vows
I can’t promise I’ll do everything right
But I can promise I won’t give up the fight
The choices I make aren’t all in good taste
But the love you continue to give me will not go to waste
When I get to high, please knock me back
I’m not worried because I know your make up all that I lack
In the valley I’ll stop and smell the flowers, on the mountaintop I’ll enjoy the view
Life’s difficult situations give me opportunity to renew my faith in you
At this moment I commit and my life has (again) begun
And I work toward one day hear your voice say, “well done”

To my future

This is all I ask…
Don’t take everything just because I’ll give you all I have
Don’t push me just because I said I won’t budge
Don’t leave me behind just because I’ll always be here
Don’t rush me just because I’m impatient
Don’t lead me into darkness just because I’ll follow you anywhere
Don’t betray me just because I’ll tell you all my secrets
Don’t wish death on me just because I’d die for you
Don’t call me selfish just because I like to get what I give
Don’t take your way just because I said I’d compromise
That is all I ask… my first, my last, and my only plea
With all the love I have,
Simone